Friday, December 21. 2007LibertyThey who can give up essential liberty to obtain a little temporary safety deserve neither liberty nor safety -- Ben Franklin I read many articles about Ron Paul calling him "kooky" his followers "inept" I find this disturbing. I belive the real question we need to ask ourselves before casting our votes is simply do you belive in the constitution or don't you? Also we need to ask ourselves is giving up our freedoms really making us safe? How can we be safe? Our military is strenched beyond imagining, Our dollar is collapsing, and our national guard those put in place to secure the homeland is not here? Exactly how safe are we? If we are attacked whose going to be defending us? these are legit questions. It upsets me more that because Americans are not listening to the media because we refuse to belive them we are called spammers or worst, It upsets me that the goverment has been bought and paid for and that people really belive that the american people will sit by and take it up the ass, time and and time again. Weather you agree with him on all stances or not, there is no arguing that he supports the Constitution of the United States, and that is the most important reason to vote, the military fights to protect our freedoms but they have all died in vain if we ourselves don't do the simpliest thing and vote for theres.
Sunday, September 16. 2007RamblesSometimes I wonder why we even have a blog, it's never used and hasn't been updated in forever, I always wonder what i might use it for, Politics are only interesting every once in a blue moon, and somethings are foreseen so far in advanced it's kinda stupid to even mention it, There is so much going on in the world what can one individual say that means anything at all in the void of the internet is sort of like sending a message in a bottle to no one, some unknown identy and the chances of the reply ever getting to the person who sent the first message even less, there is myspace which is cool every now and then but really it's only every now and then. The real world seems to sometimes seperate it's boundries every now and then and let a glimpse in to who we really are , and why some doors should remain shut or unopened, the differnce between who we were and who we are, can it really be so simple. I don't know, Perhaps self journey is the only real journey that matters, and the people who touch your life for a few brief moments are all that really matters, you have the friends you need when you need them or when they need you and then after that a new chapter opens, but weather it's through a door window or a crack might be entirly up to you, or them depending on the situation. Speaking of new chapters both my children stayed away from home last night , they went camping the oldest has been away before a few times now ( i don't allow it often) but my youngest it was her first night away from me , and the first night I have been without them, I realized just how lonely I really am in those few hours before exhaustion took me, the good news is i got much needed uninterupted sleep the bad news is that I wonder what life will be like once they grow up, I wonder if I shall always be there for everyone and yet all alone, sometimes walking alone is nice but every now and then it be nice to have a friend that shares more then just a brief walk in my world. Someone who knows me better then I know me someone that will be able to know when I need a shoulder and when I need just a strong arm and a kind word, Those moments are far to few, I am always the shoulder, the strong arm the whispers in the wind, and when it's over I am gone a forgotten page in some disastours book where I was but a sub-chapter on a long forgotten page. My immortality lives in my children, my dreams are my own however and all though they are temporily on hold they are not forgotten, I hear there voices, I see the stars and yet for a few more moments they must stay slightly out of reach, till i'm ready, I know i'm strong enough but still there are choices always and 4ever choices, choices the words seem somehow unfimilar and yet sound like an old friend calling, every breath we take is a second we spend dying, morbid perhaps, but perhaps the wisdom in knowing that every breath taken is a walk with death till death becomes an old friend and takes you, (old being a relative term) If more people realized that perhaps they spend more time thinking of how to live now then how to live later, Knowing that perhaps there may be no more tommorrows, no more last chances that today might be the last one they have to make it all work, Then maybe people would understand me and my now or never state of mind, It' s not neccassary bravery or courage, perhaps in all my stands in all my adventures in all my choices, perhaps i'm afraid of what if tommorow doesn't come, what if tommorow isn't, perhaps it's fear of not having a tommorow that pushes me into the unknown depths and deep soul seraching i seem to do. Perhaps I'm just crazy, or perhaps I'm sane and the entire world is crazy? genius mad women friend foe lover bitch these are all my names choice wisely which face you'd like to see , as the entire world is after all a stage Adue adue adue Thursday, June 15. 2006There are some things in life that are CertianThere are some things in life that you just know with certinity without any real proof or reason it just is. For Example every sunset is the most beautiful you've seen yet. That people will always look to the stars and wonder, the wondering might be differnt but everyone wonders when they look at the night time sky, You know that no matter how bad your day is and no matter what happens the sun will continue to rise weather you want it to or not. Then there are the more common place things such as the only food that should ever be reheated with expects to still taste good if not better are Chinnese food and Cold Pizza. Then of course there are a million other certinites in life, But there is a certinity of life that I feel that alot of people have stopped looking for that experts and genius's haven't found and that makes them more foolish then the guy in school with the lowest IQ. It is love it is the need for humans to find there one true soulmate, i've heard it time and time again that there is no such thing that there are no fireworks that last forever and hell sometimes i Get Cynical enough to doubt it myself and probably more cynical yet because i know the moment Aedus calls me the moment I let go, i'll forgive him even if he doesn't know it because there is some other force that tells me I have to. I don't bare my soul to often perhaps it's because it's a more fragil thing then i care to admit where nothing about me has ever been fragil. But i feel that some people or at least one person who reads this has grown to old and bitter and needs to realize there is more to life then a pretty face and a bed mate no matter how much he argues with me.
So still no happy ending and again several months had passed and I hook up with his best friend whom all though we got along amazzingly, It wasn't love like we both wanted it to be. Don't get me wrong had cards played differntly, we probably of dated awhile maybe even tricked ourselves into getting married but it of never been real love just what people settle for. As he said at my wedding rehearsal It could of been him standing there but he was happy for us because it was something that only Fate could of made happen. So there I am dating his bestfriend and there is the person who takes my breathaway hanging out like nothing is wierd. My world spun out of control that day. For every look and touch between the two of us was amazing yet there i was with his best friend the guy i'm suppose to be with, whom all thou to this day I love and I do love him and hope the best for him every day, it is a love of that of a sister and not of a girlfriend. It was a rocking day because there me and aedus were arguing over a bike and we locked eyes and in that moment we both knew what the other was thinking and the world had completly stopped. I knew from that moment on that there was no one else on the planet who could make me whole , that there was no completion and no sun or moon without him. And several days later we would start dating at a little past midnight on March 24, 1996 It was the moments described above that still holds ever disastirus devestating thing at bay. For no matter how bad it gets no matter how many times i feel that I wish the sun wouldn't come up and that even that the whole thing would end. When we see eachother when we touch the spark that feeling is still there. There is still an electricity that is between us no matter how mad upset or hurt we are. There is a certinity upon all else that we know that something greater then us is holding us together. This is not a feeling any person who has not had that feeling can explain. and maybe it doesn't always happen but it can happen, and that i feel that sure two people can love eachother and make a marriage work and sense and science can explain it but it's not always that way, and perhaps in this cynical world where what is right and wrong and science explains everything that is why marriages don't work. Not that science and good advice can't help but sometimes in some realitonship there realy is more to it then science and common sense. There is a spark that when you hear the other person at the end of the phone because they called for no reason your insainly happy to hear from them and your mind goes into a cloud. When you see them after a long day of work you still run to them just to hold them in your arms there are countless moments where although you been together for ever it still feels like the first time you met. So maybe in this world of science Love is still something that only the great poets and those that get a true glimpse of it truly understand and the understanding is that spark that knowing can't be explained in any logical form because it truly isn't logical. Now not to say that we never need help to realize this and yes Dr. Phil I think gets this although it be completly unpracticle for him to say this. His books do help because as people grow they change and change is inevitable and although the spark keeps us together good advice keeps us from wanting to kill eachother, If the entire world could realize that Good things are worth waiting for and when you got something good you hang on to it somtimes by a tearing shred I think that many other problems would fade into black. Just a thought a moment a time frame what goes through my head in passing days. If you read this site and don't know us and don't get anything I'm saying. take it as a glimpse of what is inside of a head of a typical average female that jabbers inside without ever getting out....... May the wind be forever to your back and the sunlight shinning gently upon you........
Wednesday, June 7. 2006It's the end of the world...Do people realy belive that crap? They must. I watched the news today and women were having there babies induced early and there labors delayed simply so there children wouldn't be born on 6-6-6 , I wonder if anyone else sees how stupid this is. Even scarier is Dr's and hospitals that agree to this. Inducing is only suppose to be for emergancies as is prostponing labor for any other reason it can cause serious risk to the mother and baby , yet do to superstition this is being allowed. I'm sorry but somewhere we need to draw a line. Christians and other hollier then thou groups scream about abortions or premartial sex or gay tendiencies but if it's 6-6-6 and you want to put your life and your babies life endagered to prevent them from having to write a number that's just fine. I belive technology has done alot good for the world both my children had to be induced for medical purposes, but I'd never put my babies at risk for any thing that wasn't a medical nessasity. The fact that this will probably be the only blog ever written that says that this is outrages, the fact that newsgroups and Rights for Life groups aren't all over this is probably more outragous then anything else, but what does it matter the worlds ending right? How many people will commit suicide, loose there houses cause they didn't pay there bills, do something stupid, just because they have blind faith in a stupid number... Blind faith is as good as a Blind man going into a completly lite cave and being told to find the exit with no map no directions and expecting a good outcome. So while people dread the end of the world might i remind them that it is now 06-07-06 at 12:45 am and the world is still here, and anyone who thought otherwise is still stupid.
Tuesday, April 18. 2006The only certinty in Life is Death and taxes....So as we all know everyone says the only thing that is certian in life is death and taxes....... Oh don't we all wish this were true. As i was thinking today i realized that far more then Death and taxes is true. I realized that if your male it is without certinaty that your Mother will hate all your girlfriends and eventualy your wife. This is as certian as the Sun goes round the moon or that Night Follows Day. However there are Three ways in which mothers will handle this they will A) Show complete and utter distain for there daughter in law so that not only does she and her son know it immeditly but the whole world knows it. B) She will pretend to like the daughter in law to her face but tell her son n all her friends how horrible said daughter in law is. C) she will genuinly pretend to love her daughter in law but it is a pretence non the less, and only her husband or closest friend know about it. Yes yes all you loving mother in laws know that in your heart you truly find at least several major flaws with the girl your son is in love with. With this said now if the son should break up with said dream girl the mother will immeditly fall in love with her and she will be the best thing that could of happen to him and she doesn't know what his problem is and will immeditly hate any other female that he is with. Why this is, is that mothers have this issue that no female is better then she is....... So as long as your in her sons life you are competting with her like it or not even though we know your not in her world your competing with her bond with her son. So many guys after reading this and daughter in laws will wonder how do you know if your acceptable really this key is within the father in law. If he quietly smiles and looks hopeless when his wife is rambling then he knows already about this certinty with his wife and it's okay.. you just like him just need to accept it's not your or anyone else it's just her. And she'll eventualy one day kinda sorta accept it in her own way.
Now for females this role is reversed it's the father that is overprotective and no man will ever no matter how much he claims to like them be okay for his little girl. Fathers are less vocal then mothers however so he won't say anything that would hurt his little girls feelings but he will let the man know that any inapporprate going ons with his little girl will not be tolerated and as long as men remeber that he is the Alpha male in his girls life or at least pretends to remeber that in his presence all will be right with the world. However in this case as long as both mother and father agree the girl has probably made an okay choice however if Father openly admits a complete and utter dislike but mother would feed him homecooked dinner with or without you then your still doing good if however both parents don't accept him the girl better run Quick. Another certinty in life is if you have children it is without a doubt that if you have children they will drive you to the brink of insainty and back again. All children no matter how wonderful no matter how perfect do this to there parents. The other cerinty in life is that no relationship will be perfect that everything hollywood parents and teachers tell you about love and life and happily ever after is complete and utter bullshit. yes life would be much much more simplier if the only certinty in our lives were death and taxes because the gods know I'd rather be audited then have to spend one hour with My mother in law.
Wednesday, March 15. 2006NSA Views
There was an article written by a guy that I usualy agree with and find a verry wise man except in this article he was kinda stupid and I felt the convulsion to email him and did so and I even got a response back (which honestly surprised me!)
So although no one reads this board here is the email. The article :http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/10549144/ His response : I hope you can influence your elected officials to hear what you've said. And as far as Franklin and me, I've always known that Ben was far smarter than I could ever be - but thanks for reminding me... Regards, CVZ What I wrote: -----Original Message----- From: Kitt [mailto:windsilvermoon@neomail.com] Sent: Wednesday, March 15, 2006 3:03 PM To: CVZ@msnbc.com Subject: a view you missed on the NSA/ Patriot Act What you fail to realize is that Many american citizens have husband brothers fathers sisters cousins aunts uncles and cousins overseas, in areas that according to the Patriot Act would allow the NSA to hear there every word it is not so much that they do or don't you can't prove or disapprove it either way atm. One of the reasons I'd like to see what they have and haven't been looking at if they are truly doing nothing wrong then it wouldn't be an issue in the first place. The problem comes in the fact you don't know if there listening in on an American wife whose American husband is serving overseas. listening to every I love you and tearful plea for him to come home safely. Although they are doing nothing wrong these people have every right to know what they say is being said in private because frankly it is no ones business how they feel for each other. When you go home and kiss your spouse at night and say loving words into her ear , or have a conversation with your child about what he or she should or shouldn't do assuming you have either or if not your significant other or any date you ever been on. Do you really want someone listening in on that conversation no matter how irrelevant it is Do you not have that right to have a private moment? I feel more then anything the men and women serving our country have that right, They fight for every right we have, but under the provisions met by the patriot act any man or women calling overseas is suspect and is able to be wire tapped for surveillance, weather it has or hasn't happened is irrelevant in the scheme of things, The fact is where does it stop, to protect our rights before it gets to a spot that it can no longer be protected or impossible to get back. A wiser man then you by the name of Ben Franklin had it exactly right Those that can give up essential liberty to obtain a little temporary safety deserve neither liberty nor safety. These words were never truer. I would give up my life for my country but not my liberty for the moment we give up liberty we are no longer americans. So although you are american and entitled to your right of free speech, what i want to know is does that include a right to my own privacy of what i say to my husband overseas? According to your article my rights don't matter much? So when you go home and have a personal conversation with someone you love remember that I'll be wondering if everything personal and private i say to my husband if ever I love you and I miss you if every Daddy when are you coming home is being listened to even if only for a moment to check on if there is anything interesting being said on the line am i and my children not entitled to the respect and privacy of every other american? You can say giving up my privacy to prevent the life of someone else is worth it but would it be the same if it was your privacy? I disagree. I say lets stop the murder the thieving the crap in our own country secure our borders and fix up our own back yard would do a hell of alot more good then any wire tapping ever would. Saturday, December 24. 2005Just some more garble...
So anyway, I was standing around at work today, minding my own business, when a drunk person stumbles over to me and complains about one of my co-workers who spilled her "7 dollar drink". She still had half of the spilled drink in her cup, but she bitched about it being spilled to me. A person who has no idea whats goin on. She seriously didn't need that last drink she was complaining about losing. So after listening to her rant about what had happened. I took a moment to myself, smiled, and happily sent her to guest services so that those ppl can deal with her. I mean c'mon they have nothing better to do, they site behind a counter in a nice climate controlled room. I was standing outside, freezing my ass off. I have better things to do at work then listen to drunks ramble about spilt milk. They've obviously never hung out with any of my friends...'alcohol abuse' rules would have pissed them off. Meh....oh well...I'm just rambling cuz its late at night, im tired...and this is what I do. Perhaps later I'll get around to posting my 'Gas Prices Conspiracy'. Until then....
Friday, November 25. 2005Save The MCRIB!!!!!!!!!!!1
Okay more important then politics more important then anything on the news at the moment. Is the Controversy over the McRib Sandwhich. I need my McRib I spend all year long waiting for it and now it's about to say Farewell ........... CRIES
If you feel the same way I do about this American Outlaw Of a Sandwhich please sign your name here http://www.mcrib.com/ And Save my faviorte food they already killed my chicken nuggets (have you tasted the new ones lately there gross) they have practicly destoryed the McCHicken sandwhich another downer. There last food of good taste that i eat there about to make leave. I say all these Health Junkies need to learn how to use there Kitchens and leave my fast food alone. Saturday, November 5. 2005In hindsight at least America isn't this messed uphttp://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/9891709/ France is being over run by children. Police in France are effortilist to stop them. How dare these youths use cell phones and beepers to out wit police..... Damn imagine now if this was a terriorst cell in france the entire country would of been taken over by now. Sorry but this is just plain sad for any country to allow mere children to cause so much chaos. Sunday, October 30. 2005Trading Convience for serviceIn the world of MegaWalmarts SuperWalmarts, Lowes, HomeDepot,Sams and other giant chains, i find myself at a loss if realy these store are as convient as we think they are..... First lets start with I been buying alot of appliances, I bought some major appliances from Walmart (home pc and a microwave) both broke in less then 4 months and I'm stll trying to get HP to honor there warranty without the need of a Credit Card. The microwave wasn't under warranty because walmart doenst' offer extended warranties or anything with things. SO although hte price may of been convient not realy it's equal with Dell the headache and cost of replacments were not. Then I went to lowes and bought a refigerator took me 3 hours. The sales people were practicly non existant and help was laughable. 2 horus a sales person finaly decides to wait on us and then takes an Hour to come back from the stock room to tell us what we wanted wasn't in stock.... So anyways we finaly order the damn thing blah blah blah and have it delivered Get this the refigitor was Damaged yes you heard me damaged Big bumps in it everywhere. SO I have to call them bring em back get another refigitor also tiny bit of damage i get a small refund. Convient not realy Not in the long run. ANd there low price can be matched at larger chains during sales times. So while your spending the holidays in stores with salespeople who give a damn less weather they make a sale or not and are about as helpful as a brick wall. Take some time to realy think if the shopping your doing is more of a hassel at a "convince" Store. Wednesday, October 26. 2005Starting to think I may be saneTis morning I was listening to the radio, I listen to the radio every morning and am constantly flipping to whatever station has music on it, I hate morning shows, But occassionaly one will forever reason catch my attention and I'll listen to it. Today was one of those things I was briskly flipping through tons of annoying morning talk when I hear errie halloween sounds followed by talk of how the Morning talk show lady shortly before her divorce started planning for her husbands death not that she was planning his murder just sitting there wishing he'd die before he came home, she even picked out an outfit..... Now here i am married almost 8 years we been dating almost 10 will be 8 and 10 on March 24th. So anyways I'm thinking and I mean realy realy thinking have I ever wished any harm to come to my husband let alone death. I couldn't think of even one time. I mean yea sometimes i wish i could smack him on the back of his head realy hard or that he'd hit his head and have some sense knocked into him buti t's not the same thing. So there I am listening to amorning show and it gets better her co worker a male says he felt the same way when him and his ex were going through a divorce but he had thought it out alittle more even stuck on some extra life insurance just incase. WEll then viewers began to email in and call I was like wtf. Women realy are evil 90% of the calls and emails were from women. There was everything to having wild bores eat there unconcious husband to putting jolt in crystal soda on a diabetic husbad. (after hearing this radio show I realy think any death that looked accidentle or normal in am an under the age of 65 needs to be reopened and investigated..) Now I'm realitivly sure i understand why People pay so much for a divorce these people are obviously nuts. With some deep rooted repressed mental issues. Yet I'm sure they walk around thinking there sane. Well after 10 years together I have never wished any harm to come to my loved one I think even on our worst days we are doing better then many people which makes me feel pretty good. Hopefully he'll be able to say the same. Well anyways the point is Aedus Should be happy He at least has a wife that Doesn't wish anything bad ever and there are many guys that go home to a cold cruel caculating female that smiles as she gently slips arsnic into a drink. shivers to all the guys out there beware of your female and what she may be thinking. Kitt Tuesday, October 18. 2005My view an answer to something to think aboutThis is one of the Biggest reasons that same sex marriages need to be legalized. Now "domestic partners" are wanting the same rights Wives have, which i'm sorry is bullshit. I don't belive all marriages need to be in the form of a Christion matromony but that there needs to be some form of legal binding between partners atm all we have is Marriage and then there is a civil union that same sex partners can currently leagalize there union with, that is similar but still does not include all the legal rights that married Man and women couples entail. If any couple ops not to be legaly bound together they also opt to not share in medical and other types of care. That is why we have "marriage" or a legal binding documentation of a couples decision to form a legal union. This is retarded marriage is suppose to be about love about a bond and a promise no matter what religious faith you are from. Anything that says who can marry who is wrong. but also giving "mistresses" rights is retarded. IF you want the rights of a wife you need to be one simple enough. Now for same sex partners this is obviously not a possibility and they need rights to protect them till someone realizes they need the right to be married .Having Hetrosexual couples "Twist" The term domestic partners because for whatever reason they ahve they don't want to be "married" legaly. Is not right and if continues will sever the few rights that same sex couples curently have in the us. Tell your friend to get over wahtever mental issue he has about marriage and commit legaly or deal with her not having the rights of a wife. Monday, October 17. 2005in respone to todayI can only see the moon over the mountians here it looked realy neat last night, Almost full and extermly clear night with clouds that danced around the moon making the girls talk about it entire ride home. And today I was thinking of better times when we were almost always together and long walks at midnight on the beach. We were talking about the weather at Curves because up here right now its been cold. Today...
Sunday, October 16. 2005Blog UpdateOk, just so no one feels left out, I'll make a general note about it. I'd like to welcome my wife, Kitt, to the Paradox Palace. Without her, I don't know how I would stay so un-sane. And that's not a criticism, because anyone that lets themselves fall into stasis, will eventually be swallowed up by a little enthropic force I like to call the universe. So everyone, if you know what's good for you, never stop moving, thinking, and changing! Also, we have added Kain as an author. Because, as he so eloquently put it, we wouldn't have done this without him. I truly doubt that statement though. But hey, I didn't register the domain as Aedus.com or some other ridiculously, ego-intensifying name. Anyway, Kain has been a good friend of ours for years, and his rambling can be found here with ours now. I've added some new sidebar items. You can see some of our favorite links, via Brilliant Buttons (©2004-2005 Luca Zappa, www.lucazappa.com). I have a "Powered By" of course (who doesn't?), and I'd personally use Apache2 and PHP5, but hey, I got a good deal on the web hosting, and its still Apache and PHP... I listed favored web software (mostly), Kitt is pimping Neopets and Trilogy... I can just guess what Kain will want (sorry bud, no porn links). That does it for now. Maybe I'll finish up my latest opinions entry tomorrow.
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